Saturday, February 08, 2014

Weaned - A Bittersweet Feeling

391 days or 12 months and 25 days.  That's how long we lasted. Now, our breastfeeding relationship has come to an end.  I'm feeling several different emotions about no longer nursing Easton, when I never thought I would be anything but happy to stop breastfeeding him and have my body back for a couple of years until #2. 

For the last couple of weeks, we've been down to one nursing per day. After his dinner and bath time, we'd have a few special moments nursing on the couch, winding down, cuddling and relaxing for the night. The last few days, I had noticed my supply was dwindling, but he was still interested in nursing, if only from a few ounces, mainly for comfort. The other night, we sat down as usual and I abruptly got bit! We tried again, and another bite. Humph. Ok then, I guess that's it. 

And that was that. 

After more than a year of providing Easton with  nourishment, antibodies, comfort and bonding through breastfeeding, I think we're officially done. It's so bittersweet. For me, it means letting go of his "babyhood" and embracing this next stage. I know I'll miss it more than him, but I'm happy to say he weaned on his own time, very gradually, and I know I didn't push him to be done in any way. I also made it past my goal of one year, so for that, I'm very proud and I couldn't have asked for an easier weaning experience. Now he's a big boy I guess, but he's still my baby. Bring on the extra hugs, kisses and cuddle sessions :)